Hi there! Here's another rant from me. I've been thinking about many things lately. While mostly it's still about what am I gonna do with my life. I mean I realize this life is short. We really don't have much time here, so theoretically we should spend it wisely, and by spending it wisely, I mean do works that matter, make the full of your life, waste no time doing something that you don't even know why you're doing it, hell. But of course as per usual, things are easier to said than done. Right now, I'm sitting in my cubicle, typing on my laptop while browsing about recipes, travel and culinary blog, waiting for the time to reach 5 PM so I get to go home. I repeat this routines almost everyday, come to the office - check my email - updating news from the internet - chat with my co-workers - have lunch - browse the internet again - go home. Every single day, aside from the times when I have some little work to do here. Every time I reached for the front door handle of this office, my thoughts would count on how many hours left until I can go home. To simplify it, I'm not happy with my job. I don't feel like I'm doing the right thing, like I'm wasting my time on this while I could probably be doing something else I don't know what. Yes, I make the money by just sitting here and not being productive mostly, but still, that doesn't make me feel any happier. And the worst part is I'm going nowhere with it.
To be honest, I don't actually hate it. In fact I'm quite thankful to have this job. It's just... how should I state it... not fulfilling...? Umm... I don't know. Anyway, actually I'm a lot happier than when I was working at my previous company. Obviously. Duh. I mean, the place is more comfortable, the co-workers are also nice and fun to be with, I got to learn things that I've never known before, I have plenty of time to browse the internet (and start this blog :p), not to mention about the cha-ching. Much. Much. Better. So why would I still be complaining about it? Like I said before. I'm okay with it, I feel just okay, but I'm not happy. But I still have no other back up plan at the moment, I mean I do have plans but it can't be executed yet, so I guess I'm just going to bear with it for now.
You know what? I guess I'm going through this so called 'quarter life crisis' phase right now. Gee, such an unpleasant phase.
Btw I found this quote from an inspiring lady exactly at the right time.
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| Ouch, Maya... :( |
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