finding complete love; is to find yourself ✿

finding love is to find yourself

late at night, i'm writing about that things that have always been lingering on my mind, spinning round and round, yet i never find the key nor the answer.

i realize how hard it is nowadays to make sense of that one thing called "love". truth be told, i've always been a giver, but in the end i never get those "love" back from anyone. because as selfish as a human could be, sometimes we want to get something back from the people whom we gave things to, even without realizing it. my selfish mind whispered 'i don't want this love to be one sided. because i don't want to lose this piece of my precious heart again and again.' 

people said, 'don't give anything if you're expecting anything back'. but i guess they're wrong.

"how do you mend and fix a broken heart if you don't have the complete pieces?"

of the people who i gave my love to, they took them away for granted, just like a robber, they took them happily, and it seems what's left is only few pieces of them inside me. but the worst thing is, i'm that type of person who'd give the most, and it's painful to know i almost got nothing left to give to anyone. i felt empty. that's how my mind reacts about love. until recently,

thanks to certain someone's saying, "you need to complete yourself, then you can completely love other people. being partners isn't about completing each other. it's not about 0,5 + 0,5 = 1, but rather 1 + 1 = 2. love yourself, make yourself whole, then some day you'll find someone who's going to add more happiness along your way to you. they'll be your additional part of your life to make it easier."

and honestly this opens a new perspective for me,

it doesn't have to be that other person giving back that lost piece of heart. i can obtain them myself through myself, from me to me. you will complete yourself in a way you never know you could.

fin.